why I need self-care
Happy Hump day! It’s been a hard couple of days lately. With losing my foster kitten and then learning the rest of the litter was too small to undergo surgery to get fixed. They’re currently back in the care of the Director at Anti-Cruelty Society and I miss them so much. I know they’re getting lots of love and attention, but I can’t help but feel as though I failed them. With that, and some personal things going on, self-care has been more necessary than ever.
As I’ve mentioned before, I have struggled with depression and anxiety in the past. I know what it feels like to start slipping and it’s terrifying. I’ve been dealing with a lot lately and it’s been hard to put one foot in front of the other. My heart was crushed when I found out the kitten had passed, and perhaps even more terrifying was worrying if she had died of something the others or my own kitties could get. My anxiety was through the roof. I could hardly eat, my stomach was in knots, and breathing seemed to be something I had to focus on doing. It was at this point that I knew I needed a break.
I’m a people-pleaser, I enjoy making people happy and feeling wanted. Most of the time it works in my favor, but it often leads me to over-commit myself. Between fundraisers, hosting events, supporting friends, photoshoots, blogging, my finance job, my three animals, and of course, my husband, it’s a lot to balance. On Sunday, I skipped a fundraiser I was looking forward to so that I could spend time by myself on myself.
To me, self-care looks like this: putting my phone down, watching lots of terrible reality tv, eating pizza, and two shots of tequila. Some might argue that taking care of yourself must mean bettering yourself, but I think of it as giving yourself a break. We’re often our own toughest critic so turning off that small voice in my head for a bit and letting myself sulk felt good. Of course, moping around can be a slippery slope, so the next day I forced myself to the gym, got a massage, and ate my veggies.
The world of rescue is emotional and there are plenty of ups and downs. In general, I need to be more cognizant of practicing self-care throughout every day. While that obviously doesn’t mean binging on tv and junk food constantly, it does mean being more aware of my emotional, mental, and physical state. Making sure I’m taking time for myself and putting myself first will ensure I’ll always be there for the animals.
I love what I do and I won’t let the recent heartbreak derail the big picture. I so appreciate all the support and love I’ve received from all of you. Furthermore, thank you all giving me space and time to be sad, only to come back stronger and more ready to fight for all the animals that still need help.
BOTH of these absolutely beautiful pups have found forever homes! Congrats guys!
Looking for a pup as cute as these two? Check out Stuart… I can’t handle his face.
When Anthro has a sale, you go. So much in their store is on sale so it’s basically like you’re saving money if you’re shopping there. I saw this top and I immediately fell in love. I’m a sucker for a Victorian collar. I paired it with my joggers and booties and called it a day. Shop the look below!
All photos: Margaret Rajic